— Nic Sheff (via setbabiesonfire)
I think I mentally prepared myself for this or it just hasn’t hit me. My eyes feel heavy & I’m laying flat on my bed. I’m trying to figure out what went wrong, what I did, what I could’ve done, but I realize that it doesn’t even matter. The outcome is still the same. I was tired of feeling like i was on the back burner all the time, feeling like a muse to someone, and feeling happy 45 percent of the time. I’m glad I snapped out of it. I’m glad I realized that you can’t make someone do something or feel the same way as you do. I could’ve prolonged this for months, but I already wasted four.. Not wasted because I learned from it and the memories created were really nice. the things you said were really nice, our conversations were especially really nice. I am a little sad & a little heart broken, but I couldn’t do it anymore. Walking away from this was the best decision I made. I hate timing.. you’re not on my side.